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Final Fantasy VII:Advent Children [Sep. 20th, 2005|12:34 am]
Clinton
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |none]

I have seen it!!!
*does the happy dance*

This movie is the best thing to ever grace a DVD in years.

I will say this much:

BUY THIS THING WHEN IT HITS THE STATES.

Thank you.
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2005|01:47 am]
Clinton
[Current Mood |gigglygiggly]

http://www.killsometime.com/humor/humor.asp?humor=AnnoyingCat

Go here....

I swear to you. It's nothing that will scare you, or make you jump.


Much.

Just kidding. Just trust me.

But I will warn you. It is....Infectious.
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A lifeless puppet, dangling on a string [Jul. 3rd, 2005|12:18 pm]
Clinton
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]
[Current Music |Korn_Trash]

That's all I feel now. I feel no emtion. I feel no joy. I feel no pain. I feel no happiness. No sorrow. Nothing. Every single ounce of anything has been taken from me, and all I have left, is, nothing. The only time I feel anything is when I talk to my wife. And even now, talking to her on the phone is painful. It sucks, but it's true. When I think about her, talk about her, read her email, look at her pictures, I feel something. But that is it. That's the only time. And I hate it. But, it can't be changed. The medication is making me more of a zombie. I feel nothing, whether I'm on it or not. When I take it, I'm just, slowed down. I want to make the pain go away. I want to bring the light back into my life. I want to silence the screams that each day brings. To quiet the voices in my head. Yet nothing seems to help. Nothing, except her.

What can I do to bring back the emotions? I've tried to fake the smile. It hurts. I've tried to fake the laughter. I ended up crying. I tried to go out with friends and have a good time. I ended up solitary is a room full of people. What more can I do? Where else can I turn? Who can I run to, besides the one I need to?

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold?
I dont know why it hurts me.
All I wanna do is get with you.
And make the pain go away.
Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me.
Why do I have this torment?
All I want to do is fuck it away.

I tell my lies and I despise.
Every second I'm with you.
So I run away and you still stay.
So what the fuck is with you.
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Wedding Pictures.... [Jun. 19th, 2005|03:09 pm]
Clinton
[Current Mood |lovedloved]

Sorry, but I had to cut this one to fit them all. Wedding PicturesCollapse )
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Medical Problems, Oh Joy, oh Bliss [Jun. 10th, 2005|04:25 pm]
Clinton
[Current Mood |blahblah]
[Current Music |Incubus_I Miss You]

Yes. I have problems. This much we have known. But, I strongly think I have nailed hem down to what they are.
I might have 'Cardiac Arrhythmia'. An un-natural heart rate. COuld be dangerous, could be painless. DOn't fully know yet.

I also might have CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). It's like, my Mind wants to be running around in circles trying to get things done, but my body is saying 'Fuck you. I ain't doing shit.'

Great times, huh? Well, on a happier note. I finalized the wedding ceremony while I went home in May. Man, it feels good to actually say she is my wife, and know it's legal and true. I have enlclosed a picture for your viewing pleasure.
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Oh well. I guess if anyone wantes to know anymore, feel free to ask me somehow. I'll let you know what happens medically.

And to Sarah, I'm Sorry. I'll explain more, when I get the words right.
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I wanna be the guy with the big sword... [May. 6th, 2005|06:58 am]
Clinton
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]
[Current Music |Hide and Seek__In Winter]

LiveJournal Username
Do you watch anime?
Do you speak Japanese?
Do you read Japanese?
What if LiveJournal were an anime?
Pick a Beach Boys song.
The performer of the opening themeraven789
The magical girlsailor_in_pink
The talking animalathenamasterson
The lecherous old manpsykoticangel
The teenager who uses ancient magic to win gamesevil_pixie_punk
The fifteen-year-old Japanese girl with blond hair and a D cupathenamasterson
Number of seasons it would last21,602
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2 weeks to the day. [Apr. 3rd, 2005|12:01 am]
Clinton
[Current Mood |blahblah]
[Current Music |Send Me An Angel_Deadstar Assembly]

I will be home in 2 weeks. 14 days. Too damn long. And all the while, life is testing me. I say, Bring it. I just spent 8 months in the Gulf. Right now, there is nothing that will get in my way from going home. Nothing

On another note. We have finally returned to Japan. We hit Okinawa this morning. Started the offload, and have ourselves a few days off to relax. Minus the standing watch in Radio.

In 4 more days, we will be in Sasebo. From there, it's downhill.

I find myself getting scared recently. The backbone of this Radio Shack is leaving in a few months. We have another main support (and comic relief) of the shop leaving around the same time, if not sooner. So, guess what that means? Yup, someone has to step up and take their place. And guess who gets to do it? Yup. You guessed it.

I don't think I'm ready to handle that kind of pressure. I've never been good under stress, my fuse is extremely short, and my temper is rather violent. I just don't think I'm ready.

I just have to keep telling myself, "I'm going home soon. I'm going home soon" And, I just hope that the thought of being with Nikki alone, will get me through all the bullshit I have to face to get to that point.

Goddess be with me, for now more then ever, your patience is so strongly needed.
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2 weeks to the day. [Apr. 3rd, 2005|12:01 am]
Clinton
[Current Mood |blahblah]
[Current Music |Send Me An Angel_Deadstar Assembly]

I will be home in 2 weeks. 14 days. Too damn long. And all the while, life is testing me. I say, Bring it. I just spent 8 months in the Gulf. Right now, there is nothing that will get in my way from going home. Nothing

On another note. We have finally returned to Japan. We hit Okinawa this morning. Started the offload, and have ourselves a few days off to relax. Minus the standing watch in Radio.

In 4 more days, we will be in Sasebo. From there, it's downhill.

I find myself getting scared recently. The backbone of this Radio Shack is leaving in a few months. We have another main support (and comic relief) of the shop leaving around the same time, if not sooner. So, guess what that means? Yup, someone has to step up and take their place. And guess who gets to do it? Yup. You guessed it.

I don't think I'm ready to handle that kind of pressure. I've never been good under stress, my fuse is extremely short, and my temper is rather violent. I just don't think I'm ready.

I just have to keep telling myself, "I', going home soon. I'm going home soon" And, I just hope that the thought of being with Nikki alone, will get me through all the bullshit I have to face to get to that point.

Goddess be with me, for now more then ever, your patience is so strongly needed.
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19 Days and A wake up [Mar. 27th, 2005|11:05 pm]
Clinton
[Current Mood |chipperchipper]
[Current Music |Carbon_VnV Nation]

Yup....That's how much longer I have to wait. Dammit all to hell. Why is it, that when I don't need time to move, it speeds along. Yet, when I want it to flash right by, it drags......on....forever.............

Ayways, I get to be with Nikki soon. God, I've missed her. We're going to have some wild and crazy times when I get home wink wink.

In other news, we have been talking about me re-enlisting and what-not, and we have decided.
I (we) am trying to find some orders to go to Iceland for my 2nd term. It will be beautiful, from what I have seen and heard from others who have gone there.

Let's see, what else? *taps forehead* Oh yeah, watched some new movies. Cursed was pretty good. A typical werewolf movie if you ask me. Constantine was the shit. Very good movie, with some weird ideals in it. Boogeyman. Very, very twisted. But good. Scary, but, yeah. Good.

Well, I know this is not much of an update, but. >.< It's an update.

I'm working on getting some more pictures up here somewhere. So when I do, I will let you all know.

Like the proverbial fat kid playing dodgeball, I'm out.
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Poetry Time [Mar. 19th, 2005|02:06 am]
Clinton
[Current Mood |blahblah]
[Current Music |Ghost in The Fog_Cradle of Filth]

Little Plaything on A String
Just like that dog, you keep outside.
Too kind to abandon it
But too tired to pay it any attention.

You tie it to the tree out back
And let it do it's thing.
It tries to run, but gets yanked down
Over and over again.

Just like that toy when you were a child
The dog on a string that squeeked
As you dragged it behind you, careless and unaware.

Running through the house, bashing it to the wall
Constantly tugging it, careful not to let it go astray
Putting your puppy on a display for all
Over and over again.

That's all I seem to be to you
A little plaything on a string
Either you tie me up, ignore me in full,
Or drag me lifeless and emotionless behind you.
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